It was great... To be able to spend time with Dear every day ever since this year started... It may not be a totally good thing though... I know the reason for him making the effort to keep me company everyday... We will not know when will this end...
On Monday, went to work at 1pm... Went to meet Dear at Junction 8. It was a last minute meet-up. He was walking around alone there, after Shawn alighted him there.
Just met up for a short while at City Hall MRT station on Tuesday... He went to his friend house that morning... His friend works in Merchant Court. However, as he has to go to work early that day, Dear had to leave early as well. Not wanting to go home, he shopped around at Raffles City Shopping Centre, at the same time waited for me to reach there.
Went to Plaza Singapura today after work. Promised him that I will go and help him get the stuff he wanted. Do not know how to describe also... However, could not find it at all. After finishing walking around the whole building, then I called Dear up. Did not want to call him too early as I know he reached home only in the afternoon...
He was very tired then. Was fine with postponing our meeting to tomorrow. After I went to wait for the MRT to arrive, he called again. He wanted to meet me... Headed to City Hall MRT station to wait for him then... Called him when I reach there. Was quite pissed off then. Not because I was made to wait for him again. It is because of him idling... Cannot decide whether to meet or not...
He arrived at 8.50pm. Walked to Lau Pa Sat to have our dinner. The supposed to be enjoyable dinner turned out to be a disaster. Ordered our usual 5 chicken, 5 mutton and 4 prawn satay... Then, ordered sting-ray... Dear thought that I had ordered frice rice already. He wanted it so I tried to look for the guy whom we order the sting-ray from... Saw him standing by the road-side, helping a family to flag for taxi. Thought, wait for him to go to his stall first before ordering the fried rice.
However, we lost track of him. Dear was unhappy already then... The saying a hungry man is an angry man is so true...
Caught him lazing around. Sitting there and doing NOTHING... When he delivered the sting-ray to us, Dear asked why it took so long... His reply was because they are very busy. What the fuck are you doing then??? Sitting around instead of doing your job... You call this B-U-S-Y??? Decided to order the sting-ray and fried rice from another guy. We realise that they are from the same stall... They settled the order among themselves... Dear and I still had our plate of sting-ray and fried rice. HORRIBLE is the word to describe the 2 dishes... I never ever want to go back to that stall AGAIN!!!
I am not being racist here... But this is very true... Malays are the laziest people around in the world...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
4:18 PM
First of all, let me wish all of you Happy 2005!!! Though I am late by 1 day...
My first day of the brand not year was not a happy one... People may say that I am fortunate... To have food ready for me the moment I opened my eyes... But I wanted sleep more than food then... If my mother did not buy that packet of century egg porridge for me, I would still be in dreamland at about 12pm... What a demanding person I am...
Spent the whole day lazing around at home... Went to Heartland Mall at 6pm to have dinner together with my family... except for Millie...
Here comes the unhappy part... Dear called me at around 8pm. Talked to him for an hour. Or rather... was letting him pour his troubles into my ears... I finally understood what he had wanted to tell me all this while last year... His mother is forcing him to go for a match-making session AGAIN!!! He rejected it... The result??? The whole family ignored him... No wishes for the new year... No calls from them at all... NOTHING... Even his sister, the one who he is living with, is ignoring him as well... What a joke... I was very very pissed off with all of them!!! They would rather side an outside than their own SON!!! own BROTHER!!!
He told me that it may go to the extend that if he ever leaves the house, he will not be allowed to step in ever again!!! This was what happened to his father... I tried talking to him, tried making him understand my point. "If they really care about you, treat you as part of the FAMILY, they will not do such thing to you in the first place... Is it worth it for you to now be so saddened by this, when all they want is for you to lead the life they want you to???" I continued to rant and he continued to try to sound me out... try to tell me that THAT is the way his family members are... The "battle" continues...
Felt so deeply hurt... Although I am not the victim, but I feel the pain... Poor Dear... All because of me, he have to go through all this. I am such a bad person... Making him live in misery...
He wanted very much a gold bracelet. To make him happy, agreed to buy for him one. Wanted to go to Amara to find him in the morning. But he refuse to let me go. In the end, this morning, at 8am, he called me. =) He was going to send his friend off at Golden Mile. Ask me to meet him at around 11 at Little India. I immediately went to bathe and left home at 9am. Combed every single jewellery shop to find a nice bracelet for him. Walked under the rain the whole day... None caught my eye though... When he arrived, we continued our search. He even went to the shops that I went into before also... We ended up buying a gold necklace and a pendant.
He was tired... But I did not bear to leave him then... He asked if I want to stay out the whole day with him. But I thought, things are already that bad in his family... It is better if he goes home... Although I very much want to spend the whole day with him...
Took the MRT with him all the way to Sembawang. Told me the story of his previous girlfriend... A very dramatic story as well.
Took a taxi home from there.
Called him when I reached home. Asked him if he had called his mother. What he said he will do earlier. He did... Told her that he will go for the match-making session. Will be going on Friday. Asked me if I agree to it. Do I have the choice??? If I have the say, it would be a definite NO. But...
Am living in a life filled with uncertainties now... What will happen to us eventually??? I can hide no more... Things have come to this stage. I have to wake up and come back to reality now...
Is this always the case. The person you end up spending your life with eventually is not the one you truly loves???
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
11:39 AM